It's been more than 2 months when he left.
It's very hard to adjust...every day, I always see him, I'm always with him-- we share our joys and sorrows every minute of our everyday lives.
Today, there are no more fun nights, fun week-ends. I always stay at home or if not, be with my friends, but my friends have their own lives too. After school, I always go home, and every-time that I ride on a bus, I always remember the days when he was still here. When he would wait for me at school and he would bring me to a place where I could eat what I want. When he would come to my place and check if I'm okay...and when we go to Church and review together after. Those days where the days I miss... and those days will be treasured forever in my heart.
Yes, we are very far from each other. Yes, there have been many things that has been trying to destroy us...and Yes, we keep on holding on to each other because we both know, we will grow old together...Forever.
But you see, distance does not matter as long as you trust each other. I love him as much as I love my self...But I have to fill my sanity also. I may not be a good girl friend...I may not give him what he wants... I may have disobeyed him on things which are reasonable for some matters...But I do love him very much...
I know he does everything that he can in order to make me happy... but everything he does is my happiness...I don't really need those luxurious gifts... especially the most expensive gift he got me for my 19th Birthday.
Well, the iphone 5 is big deal to me. I could not take it really, but he told me that he's happy about it. And of course, I have to respect it. Yes, I am thankful that he gave me an iphone 5 because it's on my wish list. I'm not being hypocrite but it's true. I never wanted him to spend so much money for me. I am not a materialistic person. I am happy with letters, with kisses, hugs and flowers... the cost of the material is not the point. It's not the cost how you measure someone's worth...
I am not saying that I don't appreciate his efforts. I do, but I am a bit shy because I'm afraid of what will the people say. Although I should not suppose to care about what others say but, you see, my sanity will fall to zero. Nevertheless, I have to be positive. I love the iphone 5... I appreciate his effort... and I love him for making me feel special...
If you happen to read this, thank you very much and I love you beyond the galaxies. You know that I am not rich, so I wont be able to give you something expensive in return... so here it is... I hope this blog will pay off.
I love you... flowers are enough really.
But i love the iphone too--because you have worked hard to get it for me. I adore that so much.
Thank you for your sacrifices...your sleeping patterns that has been messed up because of me.
Thank you for being patient in waiting for me until I get home.
Thank you for calling and reminding me to go to school early.
Thank you for loving me so much.
and Thank you for treating me so special...I couldn't ask for more...or maybe, to lower down your pride sometimes.
I love you so much...
