I am tired of mourning every single day...
I am tired of feigning my smile to everyone, and hiding my tears to the whole world.
I am alone.
Even the most important person in my life...he makes me feel so alone.
He is as cold as ice... emotionless...even I try so hard to thaw his cold heart...that even my tears has no match with it.
Perhaps he doesn't care anymore.
I want to ask him, but he'll ignore it anyway, so I'd rather not.
I am just hoping and praying that someday, it will all get better.
That I will be truly happy one day...
I feel sorry for myself because I am not good enough.
I cannot make him accept me as who I am. I cannot make him love me back, like the way I love him.
I am not good enough...because he cannot forgive me.
I am not hood enough because I am not worthy.
I am not good enough because he's tired.
I tried everything. I endured everything.
I have cried all my tears.
I have clenched my chest a million times because the pain is excruciating.
I want to be happy again.
...to feel the warmth of his embrace.
...to feel all the emotions of his voice.
...to feel the passion in his eyes.
...to believe every "i love you" that he speak.
I hope I won't die soon...
Because I will wait for that time to come. I don't care how long it will take...
...because I want to be happy again.
