TIt's been 5 months that something is not right. We both know what is it, but I think he is letting the time pass by and that time will fade it.
It's been almost 3 months that you're not using our endearment... Well, you have called me once, twice or three times... But seldom. I know you're not yet ready... It's just that I miss you...
"I miss the old you, but I know he’s not there anymore. At least, he’s no longer there for me. Sooner or later, when you fall in love with someone new, the old you will emerge: sweet and caring and brimming with optimism for the future. But he won’t come out for me anymore. You and I have hurt each other far too much to be able to pretend that we are as head over heels in love as we were at the start. We can never erase all the times you shouted at me, all the times I broke down and cried, all the times we got this close to breaking up, only to change our minds and spew out a stream of apologies and tearful promises to try harder, yet still feeling, deep inside, that the words were hollow. "
-COSMOPOLITAN
Every night before I sleep, I always pray and can't stop myself from crying... Wishing that when I wake up in the morning you'll be back.
I wish we are together everyday and every night, because everything is back when you're around... I don't see and feel anything special with your messages. They're empty. It feels like you are forced to text me back so that I won't be disappointed.
I am not complaining... I am thankful that you are still there.
I know you are hurting too. But its been so long...
You were back on my 22nd birthday, but after that, you were gone.
I know you only came back because you don't want to ruin my day...
Thank you for that...but you really didn't have to because it only made a larger hole in my heart.
I love you so much and all I really want is to feel that you love me too...
