I cried a million times in front of him, and told him that its hurting me so much.
He watched me cry... and I thought he can endure watching me cry...and I thought he didn't care anymore. I cried harder because of the thought of it.
It hurts.
...and he asked me to stop because he said he's going to start crying too... He's eyes were watering...
and I tried to stop... and he brushed my face with his hands and he told me he loves me.
I didn't know where it came from... I am confused... Did it came from his heart or it came out from his pity.
I didn't know, but it made me felt okay for a while.
I miss everything about him.
And I am afraid to lose him.
The pain I am having right now is like the pain never went away since the day he ignored my existence in his life.
It hurts...
