WHEN PARANOIA STRIKES...

There are a lot of things that I am thinking. And those things aren't supposed to be a part of my stressful world but suddenly, they are now a part of it... Okay, okay I know, it doesn't make any sense at all. I've been so paranoid. I've been thinking about stupid stuffs that kills me. Yes, indeed I am a writer. I create my own world... I create things that makes me happy and I write them. But, this imagination is getting worse... Since this guy has entered my world.

First, I thought he would break my heart. And decided not to entertain him anymore, but I've realized that I like him too. Nevertheless, I never felt the ardor at that moment. I tried to search for what I am needing. I tried to learn everything about him... and sooner, our hearts intertwined.

I knew I love him and he loves me...but at the moment when I went for a vacation, this effing paranoia had strike. Yes, of course, I thought he is seeing someone while I'm gone... I remembered when he texted me... "Innak kadwaen isuna, agpakpakadwa, ado kan problema na..." And hell I said "YES". WTF just I did?! Alright, I know, It's my fucking fault though but why on earth will he accompany that person? And then he was trying to state that that girl is his friend and whatsoever. I didn't care about their connections at all... My only concern is that, I THOUGHT THERE IS SOMETHING BETWEEN THEM. Something that would somehow will break my heart into pieces.

Nonetheless, my paranoia has been tickling me... It has been penetrating me over and over again. It's been killing me for days and I just wanted to confront him. But the excruciating part is that I can't... I don't have the courage... Somehow and someday, KARMA will strike if my paranoia is an OMEN...